The G word

Why are some people gay? What drives them to "swing in the other direction"? Is it genetic? Is it a personal choice? Or is it all just psychological?

For years I've wondered what makes people gay and what makes them like the same sex. I never had an answered and decided to just believe that it's a personal choice, but a while ago, all of this changed. Why is it that I'm not gay? My sister isn't, my best friends aren't, my neighbors aren't...why isn't the entire world just gay? Or at least a greater percentage of the world?

I have an answer now. Homosexuality is psychological. It's a mental thing. I think that if I one day saw a really pretty girl and said to myself "wow, she's so pretty" that wouldn't make me gay or have feelings for the girl, but if I kept reminding myself of how pretty she was, and then asking myself if I had feelings for her, and then start getting confused of why I'm asking myself that, I would eventually convince myself that I like girls because I am not letting myself let go of what I was thinking. When you constantly instill a belief in your own head, it becomes a reality.

If I cough once, i'll say to myself "omg, I'm getting sick. I'm gonna be sick! I coughed!!" and that idea stays in my brain for the rest of the day, I'm bound to "get sick"...not for real though, just sick in my brain. My illness is all in my head. I think that's how it is with homosexuality. A girl or guy notices something attractive about the same sex and they make a HUGE deal about it. They start questioning their sexuality and wondering why they're feeling like that when it's really not even a big deal. They can just forget about what they thought for 3 seconds and continue on with their lives. They end up convincing themselves that something is wrong and that they are gay, so of course they start to believe they are gay and subconsciously condition themselves to start liking people of the same sex.

It's not that hard to dismiss a funny feeling. I used to think my friend's ex boyfriend was cute, but then I told myself "this is my best friends boyfriend. What am I doing?" and I got over him within a day. It's easy. Just stop thinking about it. A lot of you might be saying "no, it's not that easy. It's very hard to just let go of a feeling like possibly being gay." And I understand why someone can think that, but if you pay attention to the example I mentioned, you'll realize that it is in fact very easy to let go of strange thoughts. The examples I used may not be about being gay, but it's the same exact situation. Trying to validate something and why validating it isn't necessary because gay isn't something that someone just IS. It's something we let happen to ourselves.

Another reason I believe that homosxuality is psychological is religion. I think homosexuality is restricted in every religion. Islam, Hinduism, Christianity, Juadaism, Buddhism..everything. If God would make something a sin and so wrong, why would he make it a genetic problem? Having blue eyes, brown hair, and being tall are all genetic aspects of a human, that's why God didn't make it a sin to have any of those, becuase HE himself gave those to you. God wouldn't make us born with something or give us something that he said is a sin. Sins are the faults of the people who commit them. If being gay was genetic, then it's God's fault that you might go to hell? That makes absolutely no sense. I am hell-bent, no pun intended, on believing that homosexuality is the result of mental and psychological factors.

And that's really all I have to say.