Saturday, October 31, 2009
The perfect alternative
Science's answer to blood diamonds. Why spend $10,000 on an engagement ring when you can spend $5000?
behind the scenes
I know most of us have already seen this video several times, but I think it's important to remember what the majority of most women look like. I always watch this video to remind myself that even supermodels aren't perfect. What women look like in magazines is never what they really look like.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Zimbardo strikes again
I found this video very interesting. After learning about Zimbardo's Standford Prison Experiment, I decided to do some research on him and I came across this video. He makes a lot of references to Abu Ghraib, Stanley Milgram's Electric Shock Experiment and even talks about the good side of people.
We'd be surprised if we knew what we were capable of. We'd all like to think that we're good people and will always be the best people we can be but one day we'll surprise ourselves when we're put into a situation where you can't help but be someone you don't want to be. I also wanted to comment on Abu Ghraib. This is another reason why I don't support our military. In this country, it's okay to say that all Muslim people are bad because a few Muslims made really bad decisions, so I think it's completely fair to say an entire military is bad even though only a few of the army members participated in the sick acts of Abu Ghraib.
Anyway, watch this video. It really is fascinating.
We'd be surprised if we knew what we were capable of. We'd all like to think that we're good people and will always be the best people we can be but one day we'll surprise ourselves when we're put into a situation where you can't help but be someone you don't want to be. I also wanted to comment on Abu Ghraib. This is another reason why I don't support our military. In this country, it's okay to say that all Muslim people are bad because a few Muslims made really bad decisions, so I think it's completely fair to say an entire military is bad even though only a few of the army members participated in the sick acts of Abu Ghraib.
Anyway, watch this video. It really is fascinating.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
WATCH MY SISTER'S WEATHER REPORT EVERY THURSDAY!
STEP 1: www.atvn.org
STEP 2: click on "thursday"
STEP 3: forward the video to the end. Maybe like 2-3 minutes before the end.
You will then see my sister reporting the weather for Annenberg TV News :)
I EXPECT THAT YOU'LL ENJOY IT.
penny for your thoughts
If ignorance is bliss, then why do we seek knowledge?-Lara Dutta, Miss Universe 2000
You don't wear the hijab, the hijab wears you.
In the situation concerning the head scarf worn by women in Islam, this is absolutely true and sadly, more and more women who wear the hijab these days are forgetting that.
In Islam, a woman is supposed to cover her hair AND her body as a sign of modesty. They are also supposed to refrain from spending time with boys. It sounds weird, but they're not supposed to get too friendly with them. It's okay to be friends, but you can't "hook up" or have a boyfriend when you have a hijab. That stuff is prohibited in Islam anyway, but when you wear a hijab the rules apply to you even more, but over the years the hijab has turned into a fashion statement instead of a symbol of respect and understanding for the religion.
I have a friend who wears the hijab. I should put that in quotes. She wears the scarf like a bandana and pulls her bangs out. The point of a head scarf is so your HAIR is covered and her hair is not covered. She also shows here legs, chest and arms which are supposed to be covered when you wear a hijab because covering just your hair doesn't cut it. She has also had two boyfriends and hooked up with a few boys. This forces me to ask what the point of her wearing the hijab is. Why is she wearing it when she still shows her body and still does things that she's not supposed to? What does her hijab symbolize? The veil is supposed to let boys know that you're a conservative, muslim girl who takes her religion and who she is very seriously, but this friend of mine gives boys the complete opposite impression.
It disappoints me because my religion is something I respect so much and take very seriously and it makes me upset to see girls do things like this, because it's not okay. They need to remember that when you put that scarf on your head, you cannot pick and choose what you believe in, it just is what it is. The scarf is supposed to control you and make you remember who you are when you're about to do something you shouldn't be. It becomes the little voice inside your head. It's girls like these that make people say that "hijabi girls are the worst!" and I hate to admit it, but it's becoming more and more of a reality every day.
When you put the scarf on, you need to cover your entire body, not just your hair. Doesn't it defeat the purpose of a hijab when your body isn't covered? And covering your BODY seems way more important to me than covering your hair. It's like saying I can wear a bikini to the beach as long as my hair is covered. It makes absolutely no sense. The hijab means absolutely nothing when you're not doing everything that comes with it.
But of course, there are many other girls that wear the hijab and are absolutely amazing. They don't dress like nuns, but they keep their bodies covered, the have guy friends, but they never have boyfriends, they'll give a guy a friendly hug, but they won't makeout with them. It makes me proud when I see them.
you don't wear the hijab, the hijab wears you.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
The S Word
Sress.
Sometimes we take too much on ourselves. Usually more than we can handle. It's unfair, but stress is inevitable and if we didn't have it, our lives would be kinda boring. We need that element of drama.
Right now, I am stressed about work, an exam, a paper, and a speech, but if I didn't have any of those going for me right now, I'd be at home in front of the tv. It's kinda nice to be busy and have something to do. I know it's probably impossibly hard to do, but we should look at the brighter side of stress, because there is one.
I'm not saying it's fun or good to be stressed, I'm just saying it's better to have something to think about and have something to do instead of sitting around wasting time. Stress is also a good incentive for people to relax and take time off because that's really important and without stress, we wouldn't have a need or desire to do that.
I'm not write a whole lot about this cause there's not much to say...but it was just a thought I had to share with everyone before I forgot it :)
Sometimes we take too much on ourselves. Usually more than we can handle. It's unfair, but stress is inevitable and if we didn't have it, our lives would be kinda boring. We need that element of drama.
Right now, I am stressed about work, an exam, a paper, and a speech, but if I didn't have any of those going for me right now, I'd be at home in front of the tv. It's kinda nice to be busy and have something to do. I know it's probably impossibly hard to do, but we should look at the brighter side of stress, because there is one.
I'm not saying it's fun or good to be stressed, I'm just saying it's better to have something to think about and have something to do instead of sitting around wasting time. Stress is also a good incentive for people to relax and take time off because that's really important and without stress, we wouldn't have a need or desire to do that.
I'm not write a whole lot about this cause there's not much to say...but it was just a thought I had to share with everyone before I forgot it :)
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Drinks on me!
I think alcohol should be banned. It just should.
I'm not gonna go into detail about why I think it should be illegal, I just do! It's not just that fact that it makes you drunk which causes bad judgement, drunk driving, people (as well as yourself) dying, getting hurt, and many other things, but also because HELLO?!! it's bad for you! Have people forgotten that? Alcohol, even if drunk moderately, is not healthy and damages your brain, obviously, causes arthritis and gout (which my drinker uncle has), increased risk of cancer, heart disease, hyperglycermia, hypoglycemia, obesity, nervous disorders and so many more. I don't buy into any of that b.s. that says alcohol is good for you. It's not.
If alcohol becomes illegal, yeah a lot of underground stuff will happen, but at least people will be more inclined to not drink it because it's illegal and the underage drinking rate could very possible decrease dramatically. That'll be the day.
AND IT SMELLS BAD!
I'm not gonna go into detail about why I think it should be illegal, I just do! It's not just that fact that it makes you drunk which causes bad judgement, drunk driving, people (as well as yourself) dying, getting hurt, and many other things, but also because HELLO?!! it's bad for you! Have people forgotten that? Alcohol, even if drunk moderately, is not healthy and damages your brain, obviously, causes arthritis and gout (which my drinker uncle has), increased risk of cancer, heart disease, hyperglycermia, hypoglycemia, obesity, nervous disorders and so many more. I don't buy into any of that b.s. that says alcohol is good for you. It's not.
If alcohol becomes illegal, yeah a lot of underground stuff will happen, but at least people will be more inclined to not drink it because it's illegal and the underage drinking rate could very possible decrease dramatically. That'll be the day.
AND IT SMELLS BAD!
very useful
I came across this video on youtube and thought I should share it with all of you. You could be missing out! enjoy :)
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Support out troops??
I think not.
I find it so fascinating when I see people with a sticker that says "support our troops" on their bumper and posters that say "bring 'em home" with a bunch of soliders on them. Yes, we should bring the soldiers home but not because it's sad what they are doing, but because war is wrong and it's not okay to take innocent lives because of a lost cause.
Why should we support our troops? They're killing innocent civilians and we haven't gained anything since this started 8 years ago. That's almost a decade. "Support the troops", "they work so hard!", "They're fighting for our country!", "They're risking their lives!" None of that matters when poor families are getting murdered and their homes are being destroyed. I don't see soldiers as "fighting for our country" I see them as voluntarily and proudly killing people who are absolutely helpless. Everyone knows that there is no military stronger than the US', so soldiers take advantage of that and step on everyone they can in order to achieve something that will never be achieved. It makes me so mad. I hate those yellow ribbons that say "support our troops" why should we support them?! They're not doing anything noble or kind. Yes, it takes a lot of courage to go and fight, but that doesn't make what they're doing okay...it takes even more bravery and courage to say "no...I don't need to be a part of this and I can't do it."
People so blindly "support our troops" and they don't even realize what exactly they're doing. Have they realized that we have literally gained NOTHING from this war and innocent people continue to die every day? Gas prices are still too high, (I'm embarrassed to mention his name because it's such old news, but...) Osama Bin Laden hasn't been, and will never be captured. This war started and will end in vain. People are sympathetic to the troops because a lot of the soldiers die, but they bring that upon themselves.
I strongly believe in karma. What goes around does indeed come around, but what's interesting with this situation is instead of caring about the poor, innocent, helpless families that are dying and putting an end to this problem, we're crying about some soldiers dying that are armed with advanced machinery and have strong demeanors and then we're saying we need to support them. Iraq needs support, Afghanistan needs support, Pakistan needs support.
I am aware that Obama is an advocate for stopping the war and it's something that makes me proud to say Barack Obama is my country's president. I love the guy and I appreciate every effort him and his administration have or are making to end this stupidity. But point blank, "our troops" do not deserve the type of recognition they receieve.
I find it so fascinating when I see people with a sticker that says "support our troops" on their bumper and posters that say "bring 'em home" with a bunch of soliders on them. Yes, we should bring the soldiers home but not because it's sad what they are doing, but because war is wrong and it's not okay to take innocent lives because of a lost cause.
Why should we support our troops? They're killing innocent civilians and we haven't gained anything since this started 8 years ago. That's almost a decade. "Support the troops", "they work so hard!", "They're fighting for our country!", "They're risking their lives!" None of that matters when poor families are getting murdered and their homes are being destroyed. I don't see soldiers as "fighting for our country" I see them as voluntarily and proudly killing people who are absolutely helpless. Everyone knows that there is no military stronger than the US', so soldiers take advantage of that and step on everyone they can in order to achieve something that will never be achieved. It makes me so mad. I hate those yellow ribbons that say "support our troops" why should we support them?! They're not doing anything noble or kind. Yes, it takes a lot of courage to go and fight, but that doesn't make what they're doing okay...it takes even more bravery and courage to say "no...I don't need to be a part of this and I can't do it."
People so blindly "support our troops" and they don't even realize what exactly they're doing. Have they realized that we have literally gained NOTHING from this war and innocent people continue to die every day? Gas prices are still too high, (I'm embarrassed to mention his name because it's such old news, but...) Osama Bin Laden hasn't been, and will never be captured. This war started and will end in vain. People are sympathetic to the troops because a lot of the soldiers die, but they bring that upon themselves.
I strongly believe in karma. What goes around does indeed come around, but what's interesting with this situation is instead of caring about the poor, innocent, helpless families that are dying and putting an end to this problem, we're crying about some soldiers dying that are armed with advanced machinery and have strong demeanors and then we're saying we need to support them. Iraq needs support, Afghanistan needs support, Pakistan needs support.
I am aware that Obama is an advocate for stopping the war and it's something that makes me proud to say Barack Obama is my country's president. I love the guy and I appreciate every effort him and his administration have or are making to end this stupidity. But point blank, "our troops" do not deserve the type of recognition they receieve.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
The G word
Why are some people gay? What drives them to "swing in the other direction"? Is it genetic? Is it a personal choice? Or is it all just psychological?
For years I've wondered what makes people gay and what makes them like the same sex. I never had an answered and decided to just believe that it's a personal choice, but a while ago, all of this changed. Why is it that I'm not gay? My sister isn't, my best friends aren't, my neighbors aren't...why isn't the entire world just gay? Or at least a greater percentage of the world?
I have an answer now. Homosexuality is psychological. It's a mental thing. I think that if I one day saw a really pretty girl and said to myself "wow, she's so pretty" that wouldn't make me gay or have feelings for the girl, but if I kept reminding myself of how pretty she was, and then asking myself if I had feelings for her, and then start getting confused of why I'm asking myself that, I would eventually convince myself that I like girls because I am not letting myself let go of what I was thinking. When you constantly instill a belief in your own head, it becomes a reality.
If I cough once, i'll say to myself "omg, I'm getting sick. I'm gonna be sick! I coughed!!" and that idea stays in my brain for the rest of the day, I'm bound to "get sick"...not for real though, just sick in my brain. My illness is all in my head. I think that's how it is with homosexuality. A girl or guy notices something attractive about the same sex and they make a HUGE deal about it. They start questioning their sexuality and wondering why they're feeling like that when it's really not even a big deal. They can just forget about what they thought for 3 seconds and continue on with their lives. They end up convincing themselves that something is wrong and that they are gay, so of course they start to believe they are gay and subconsciously condition themselves to start liking people of the same sex.
It's not that hard to dismiss a funny feeling. I used to think my friend's ex boyfriend was cute, but then I told myself "this is my best friends boyfriend. What am I doing?" and I got over him within a day. It's easy. Just stop thinking about it. A lot of you might be saying "no, it's not that easy. It's very hard to just let go of a feeling like possibly being gay." And I understand why someone can think that, but if you pay attention to the example I mentioned, you'll realize that it is in fact very easy to let go of strange thoughts. The examples I used may not be about being gay, but it's the same exact situation. Trying to validate something and why validating it isn't necessary because gay isn't something that someone just IS. It's something we let happen to ourselves.
Another reason I believe that homosxuality is psychological is religion. I think homosexuality is restricted in every religion. Islam, Hinduism, Christianity, Juadaism, Buddhism..everything. If God would make something a sin and so wrong, why would he make it a genetic problem? Having blue eyes, brown hair, and being tall are all genetic aspects of a human, that's why God didn't make it a sin to have any of those, becuase HE himself gave those to you. God wouldn't make us born with something or give us something that he said is a sin. Sins are the faults of the people who commit them. If being gay was genetic, then it's God's fault that you might go to hell? That makes absolutely no sense. I am hell-bent, no pun intended, on believing that homosexuality is the result of mental and psychological factors.
And that's really all I have to say.
For years I've wondered what makes people gay and what makes them like the same sex. I never had an answered and decided to just believe that it's a personal choice, but a while ago, all of this changed. Why is it that I'm not gay? My sister isn't, my best friends aren't, my neighbors aren't...why isn't the entire world just gay? Or at least a greater percentage of the world?
I have an answer now. Homosexuality is psychological. It's a mental thing. I think that if I one day saw a really pretty girl and said to myself "wow, she's so pretty" that wouldn't make me gay or have feelings for the girl, but if I kept reminding myself of how pretty she was, and then asking myself if I had feelings for her, and then start getting confused of why I'm asking myself that, I would eventually convince myself that I like girls because I am not letting myself let go of what I was thinking. When you constantly instill a belief in your own head, it becomes a reality.
If I cough once, i'll say to myself "omg, I'm getting sick. I'm gonna be sick! I coughed!!" and that idea stays in my brain for the rest of the day, I'm bound to "get sick"...not for real though, just sick in my brain. My illness is all in my head. I think that's how it is with homosexuality. A girl or guy notices something attractive about the same sex and they make a HUGE deal about it. They start questioning their sexuality and wondering why they're feeling like that when it's really not even a big deal. They can just forget about what they thought for 3 seconds and continue on with their lives. They end up convincing themselves that something is wrong and that they are gay, so of course they start to believe they are gay and subconsciously condition themselves to start liking people of the same sex.
It's not that hard to dismiss a funny feeling. I used to think my friend's ex boyfriend was cute, but then I told myself "this is my best friends boyfriend. What am I doing?" and I got over him within a day. It's easy. Just stop thinking about it. A lot of you might be saying "no, it's not that easy. It's very hard to just let go of a feeling like possibly being gay." And I understand why someone can think that, but if you pay attention to the example I mentioned, you'll realize that it is in fact very easy to let go of strange thoughts. The examples I used may not be about being gay, but it's the same exact situation. Trying to validate something and why validating it isn't necessary because gay isn't something that someone just IS. It's something we let happen to ourselves.
Another reason I believe that homosxuality is psychological is religion. I think homosexuality is restricted in every religion. Islam, Hinduism, Christianity, Juadaism, Buddhism..everything. If God would make something a sin and so wrong, why would he make it a genetic problem? Having blue eyes, brown hair, and being tall are all genetic aspects of a human, that's why God didn't make it a sin to have any of those, becuase HE himself gave those to you. God wouldn't make us born with something or give us something that he said is a sin. Sins are the faults of the people who commit them. If being gay was genetic, then it's God's fault that you might go to hell? That makes absolutely no sense. I am hell-bent, no pun intended, on believing that homosexuality is the result of mental and psychological factors.
And that's really all I have to say.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Lollicup, lollicup, oh lolli lolli cup
First, let me start of by saying how TIRED I am. I woke up at 7:45, came home at 2:30, ate, and now I have work in an hour from 5-10. FML.
So anyway...I love boba. I think most of us do. It's just yummy and the place that I trust and go to the most is Lollicup in Walnut across from Mt. Sac. Well, there's more than one boba place there, so I figured that it wouldn't hurt to switch things up a bit. All boba places taste the same right?...Wrong.
The place across from Lollicup is called "Upper House" and as mentioned before, I figured it'd be alright. As I was walking to Upper House, I noticed the health grade they received on their door. This is B grade place. IMMEDIATE turn off. But I thought...maybe they recieved that grade based on how ugly their place is and not on how good their boba tastes so I said who cares? I want boba. I walked into the strange smelling, ugly shade of pink place and ordered a taro milk tea with boba, something I get often at Lollicup and LOVE. I expected Upper House to have the same quality taro milk tea as lollicup...it's situations like these that have made me realize to never, ever have high expectations in life.
I received my taro milk tea, which is supposed to be lavendar colored, as most people would know taro is a purple fruit. This drink was beige?? Light beige. It looked like white milk with half a tea bag dipped in it. My mood went from anxious to angry in like 3 seconds. As I received my drink, I said in my head "WTH is this?" and I was scared to take the first sip, but with a prayer, I did. Eckkk....first of all, not only did it taste NOTHING like taro, the boba was like jelly, boba is better harder, and this drink was sooo sweet. I felt sick after the 4th sip. I was so mad. I had already wasted $5 on junk food at mt. sac that I didn't even end up finishing, and now I had just wasted another $3 on bad boba that doesn't even taste like it should.
Point blank, DON'T GO TO UPPER HOUSE. It's not just the fact that they are a B grade place that should make you not want to go, it's the atmosphere of the place and most importantly, their yucky boba drinks. I'm telling you...listen to me. There's a reason they got a B...and I think that was generous. Lollicup is a place you can trust and it's guaranteed to be good. And it smells fine.
Wow what a lame day. Bad weather, $2 on cookies I thought would be good, but were gross, $1.50 on water I haven't even opened yet and probably won't finish, $1 on hot cheetos that I thought I could finish, but didn't and $3 on Boba. LAME!!!!!!!!!!! What a waste of money and food and I feel fatter than ever with the amount of junk I consumed today. This is horrible. Early New Year's Resolution: Make better food choices!!
Upper House...more like Lower House to me!
So anyway...I love boba. I think most of us do. It's just yummy and the place that I trust and go to the most is Lollicup in Walnut across from Mt. Sac. Well, there's more than one boba place there, so I figured that it wouldn't hurt to switch things up a bit. All boba places taste the same right?...Wrong.
The place across from Lollicup is called "Upper House" and as mentioned before, I figured it'd be alright. As I was walking to Upper House, I noticed the health grade they received on their door. This is B grade place. IMMEDIATE turn off. But I thought...maybe they recieved that grade based on how ugly their place is and not on how good their boba tastes so I said who cares? I want boba. I walked into the strange smelling, ugly shade of pink place and ordered a taro milk tea with boba, something I get often at Lollicup and LOVE. I expected Upper House to have the same quality taro milk tea as lollicup...it's situations like these that have made me realize to never, ever have high expectations in life.
I received my taro milk tea, which is supposed to be lavendar colored, as most people would know taro is a purple fruit. This drink was beige?? Light beige. It looked like white milk with half a tea bag dipped in it. My mood went from anxious to angry in like 3 seconds. As I received my drink, I said in my head "WTH is this?" and I was scared to take the first sip, but with a prayer, I did. Eckkk....first of all, not only did it taste NOTHING like taro, the boba was like jelly, boba is better harder, and this drink was sooo sweet. I felt sick after the 4th sip. I was so mad. I had already wasted $5 on junk food at mt. sac that I didn't even end up finishing, and now I had just wasted another $3 on bad boba that doesn't even taste like it should.
Point blank, DON'T GO TO UPPER HOUSE. It's not just the fact that they are a B grade place that should make you not want to go, it's the atmosphere of the place and most importantly, their yucky boba drinks. I'm telling you...listen to me. There's a reason they got a B...and I think that was generous. Lollicup is a place you can trust and it's guaranteed to be good. And it smells fine.
Wow what a lame day. Bad weather, $2 on cookies I thought would be good, but were gross, $1.50 on water I haven't even opened yet and probably won't finish, $1 on hot cheetos that I thought I could finish, but didn't and $3 on Boba. LAME!!!!!!!!!!! What a waste of money and food and I feel fatter than ever with the amount of junk I consumed today. This is horrible. Early New Year's Resolution: Make better food choices!!
Upper House...more like Lower House to me!
Thursday, October 8, 2009
happy working song
It's actually miserable working song.
So my mom told me that this Saturday is my cousin's wedding and that I needed to take that day off of work. As most of you know, I am new at Forever 21 so taking time off right now is a big no-no, but I didn't really have a choice since it IS my cousin's wedding. So I asked for the day off and my mean boss said "this is going on your performance." I'm not sure what that means, but I know it's bad and I was really upset since I have an obligation and I'm not just taking time off for fun. But I got the day off and everything was fine. I went home and looked at the wedding invitation and I'm sure you can guess what happened next.
Yes, my mom told me the wrong date. The wedding is in fact next week and I took the wrong day off. So then I called my boss to let her know that I can still work, but she told me that my shift had already been replaced by someone else. GREAT. Now...not only am I getting this put on my "performance" when I don't even need the day off, but now I have to ask for ANOTHER adjustment to my schedule for next week...and I'm NEW. I can't be doing stuff like this and asking for days off and changes in the schedule. I'm so upset and confused and I have mid terms next week and my life is just miserable. For now anyway...
I've never been so stressed out before :(
“Stress is nothing more than a socially acceptable form of mental illness” -Richard Carlson
this is for those days
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
You've got a friend in me
I have no friends. :(
I mean...I do, just not at sac. They're all either still in high school, or in a different college. It's very hard.
I've been talking to some of my friends on the phone lately and after 5 minutes of conversation I hear "hey! I'm meeting someone, can I call you back later?" Why can't I ever be meeting someone?! :( They're always busy, or with someone else or "meeting someone". It's frustrating. They've all moved on and I can't blame them since it's only natural that that's gonna happen since we're all in different schools now, but I want to move on too! I want friends :(
It's not like I haven't been trying. I reallllly have. I tried talking to people in my soc class, but no one's nice and no one really talks to each other. I gave up on that. My psych class has some nice people but they party and they drink, so I know I can't spend time with them outside class since I don't do those things. My aerobics class is good, everyone's pretty nice, but they're all kinda shy and a lot of them speak Spanish most of the time. I don't speak Spanish. My speech class is the best. Everyone's amazing, I just don't know if I'll hang out with the kids in there outside class. I mean, I want to, but I don't know if they do. You see my problem? I'm stuck. I'm a loser.
My mom keeps telling me to "make some friends" cause I'm always home on the weekends studying or out with my sister. She says "make some friends" like I haven't been trying or like I don't want to make any. That's not the case at all. My best friend and I stopped talking in June and everything has gone downhill from there. Sometimes I feel like maybe I should've stayed friends with her so I could have someone with me, but then I'd be friends with her for the wrong reasons. I'm embarrassed to admit it, but I'm a loner. It's horrible. Maybe when clubs start I'll make some friends? I hope so. My sister made so many great friends at Mt. Sac and she continues to make them even in university, she has so many it's not fair. Her guy friend told her that she has an "addictive personality" the other day. Why can't I have an addictive personality? I'm nice, I'm friendly, I'm fun...what's wrong with me? I dunno. I'm sad.
My old friends and I are drifting apart, so eventually I'm literally not going to have a single friend. I need backups! And the people at work are jerks...so they're not really an option. Oh gosh. I feel pathetic.
Excuse me while I scarf down a pint of ice cream...
I mean...I do, just not at sac. They're all either still in high school, or in a different college. It's very hard.
I've been talking to some of my friends on the phone lately and after 5 minutes of conversation I hear "hey! I'm meeting someone, can I call you back later?" Why can't I ever be meeting someone?! :( They're always busy, or with someone else or "meeting someone". It's frustrating. They've all moved on and I can't blame them since it's only natural that that's gonna happen since we're all in different schools now, but I want to move on too! I want friends :(
It's not like I haven't been trying. I reallllly have. I tried talking to people in my soc class, but no one's nice and no one really talks to each other. I gave up on that. My psych class has some nice people but they party and they drink, so I know I can't spend time with them outside class since I don't do those things. My aerobics class is good, everyone's pretty nice, but they're all kinda shy and a lot of them speak Spanish most of the time. I don't speak Spanish. My speech class is the best. Everyone's amazing, I just don't know if I'll hang out with the kids in there outside class. I mean, I want to, but I don't know if they do. You see my problem? I'm stuck. I'm a loser.
My mom keeps telling me to "make some friends" cause I'm always home on the weekends studying or out with my sister. She says "make some friends" like I haven't been trying or like I don't want to make any. That's not the case at all. My best friend and I stopped talking in June and everything has gone downhill from there. Sometimes I feel like maybe I should've stayed friends with her so I could have someone with me, but then I'd be friends with her for the wrong reasons. I'm embarrassed to admit it, but I'm a loner. It's horrible. Maybe when clubs start I'll make some friends? I hope so. My sister made so many great friends at Mt. Sac and she continues to make them even in university, she has so many it's not fair. Her guy friend told her that she has an "addictive personality" the other day. Why can't I have an addictive personality? I'm nice, I'm friendly, I'm fun...what's wrong with me? I dunno. I'm sad.
My old friends and I are drifting apart, so eventually I'm literally not going to have a single friend. I need backups! And the people at work are jerks...so they're not really an option. Oh gosh. I feel pathetic.
Excuse me while I scarf down a pint of ice cream...
Monday, October 5, 2009
Workin' in a coal mine
So I got a job at Forever 21. I worked there in June/July and then had to quit since we went on vacation, but anyway, I'm back now and I'm a cashier!
Being a cashier is a lot of fun. I love ringing people up and talking to the customers. I especially like not having to walk around and ask people "are you finding everything okay?" and then cleaning up after them like I used to when I was a sales associate there. 'Twas very annoying. But now I don't have to worry about that anymore. I still have to work the floor, but at least I get to be a cashier as well.
I like my job, I really do. I like Forever 21 and I like cashiering, but the people there are just so not nice. Stuck up I guess. I'm a really nice person and I always make an effort to get to know people, but the workers are Forever 21 just don't reciprocate the niceness. They're all so close and they all joke and talk to each other, but no one talks to me :(. It's very sad. And when they do talk to me, they're just not nice like they are to the other workers. They only talk to me if they have to and they're just rude. Especially my boss, Julie. OMG she's the worst. I won't mention what race she is, but let's just say if you did know what race she was, you wouldn't be surprised that she's not nice. I have a mandatory event on Saturday so obviously I can't work, so Miss Julie said "it's going on your performance" WTF?!
Everyone likes her, or at least gets along with her and she's so nice to everyone EXCEPT ME. I swear. It's horrible. Maybe because I'm new?? I don't know, but that's still no excuse to be rude to me and act like I don't matter. She'll be laughing with someone then I'll say "julie.." and her ENTIRE expression will change from laughter to like, misery. It makes me so upset. I do whatever I can to make her happy and to be nice, but she just won't respond with the same treatment. It might be because her boss, Carla (who I love cause she's so nice and just the coolest person ever) is on maternity leave and she's just on a POWER TRIP.
Now, I don't want to be all bee-yatchy and start complaining about my whole life and my job. My job isn't horrible, just some of the people are. But some of the people are really sweet. Michelle, Sam, Priya, Ashley, Nicole...they're great! They've been really nice to "the new girl" and friendly, so I'm not gonna complain about them. But my boss and this guy Diego who told me I wouldn't get hired again (UHH HELLO??!!) and these other girls are just tragic.
Anyway, sorry to bore you with my "woe is me" nonsense, but you really need to observe the other Forever 21 employees and see how they treat me. The best word to describe the atmosphere when I'm around them is "awkward." That should paint the perfect picture for you.
I really am working in a coal mine, and I'm not findin' diamonds any time soon!
p.s. i get a WHOLE 10% discount. Awesome, yeah?!! that's tax.
Being a cashier is a lot of fun. I love ringing people up and talking to the customers. I especially like not having to walk around and ask people "are you finding everything okay?" and then cleaning up after them like I used to when I was a sales associate there. 'Twas very annoying. But now I don't have to worry about that anymore. I still have to work the floor, but at least I get to be a cashier as well.
I like my job, I really do. I like Forever 21 and I like cashiering, but the people there are just so not nice. Stuck up I guess. I'm a really nice person and I always make an effort to get to know people, but the workers are Forever 21 just don't reciprocate the niceness. They're all so close and they all joke and talk to each other, but no one talks to me :(. It's very sad. And when they do talk to me, they're just not nice like they are to the other workers. They only talk to me if they have to and they're just rude. Especially my boss, Julie. OMG she's the worst. I won't mention what race she is, but let's just say if you did know what race she was, you wouldn't be surprised that she's not nice. I have a mandatory event on Saturday so obviously I can't work, so Miss Julie said "it's going on your performance" WTF?!
Everyone likes her, or at least gets along with her and she's so nice to everyone EXCEPT ME. I swear. It's horrible. Maybe because I'm new?? I don't know, but that's still no excuse to be rude to me and act like I don't matter. She'll be laughing with someone then I'll say "julie.." and her ENTIRE expression will change from laughter to like, misery. It makes me so upset. I do whatever I can to make her happy and to be nice, but she just won't respond with the same treatment. It might be because her boss, Carla (who I love cause she's so nice and just the coolest person ever) is on maternity leave and she's just on a POWER TRIP.
Now, I don't want to be all bee-yatchy and start complaining about my whole life and my job. My job isn't horrible, just some of the people are. But some of the people are really sweet. Michelle, Sam, Priya, Ashley, Nicole...they're great! They've been really nice to "the new girl" and friendly, so I'm not gonna complain about them. But my boss and this guy Diego who told me I wouldn't get hired again (UHH HELLO??!!) and these other girls are just tragic.
Anyway, sorry to bore you with my "woe is me" nonsense, but you really need to observe the other Forever 21 employees and see how they treat me. The best word to describe the atmosphere when I'm around them is "awkward." That should paint the perfect picture for you.
I really am working in a coal mine, and I'm not findin' diamonds any time soon!
p.s. i get a WHOLE 10% discount. Awesome, yeah?!! that's tax.
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